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𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐝𝐮𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨 >.<

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𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐞: 𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐢𝐭𝐲, 𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐧 𝐨𝐫 𝐫𝐞𝐧 𝐚𝐬 𝐧𝐢𝐜𝐤𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐞𝐬!!

𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐬: 𝐚𝐧𝐢𝐦𝐞, 𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐝𝐞𝐜𝐨𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐣𝐩𝐨𝐩, 𝐯𝐢𝐬𝐮𝐚𝐥 𝐯𝐤𝐞𝐢, 𝐦𝐨𝐯𝐢𝐞𝐬, 𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐥 𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐞/𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤𝐬, 𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐚,𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐜𝐫𝐚𝐟𝐭, 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞 𝐢𝐬 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞, 𝐬𝐚𝐧𝐫𝐢𝐨(𝐤𝐞𝐫𝐨𝐩𝐩𝐢 𝐦𝐲 𝐠𝐨𝐚𝐭)

𝐝𝐧𝐢!: 𝒻𝓇ℯ𝒶𝓀𝓎 𝐚𝐜𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭𝐬(𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐧, 𝐨𝐫 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐚𝐝𝐮𝐥𝐭𝐬 𝐨𝐧 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐬𝐞𝐱𝐮𝐚𝐥 𝐢𝐧 𝐠𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐥!!)

𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐢𝐜 𝐭𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞: 𝐣𝐞𝐟𝐟 𝐛𝐮𝐜𝐤𝐥𝐞𝐲(𝐦𝐲 𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐢𝐥𝐲) 𝐦𝐢𝐭𝐬𝐤𝐢( 𝐦𝐲 𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐞𝐧, 𝐢𝐥𝐲) 𝐦𝐨𝐦 𝐣𝐞𝐚𝐧𝐬, 𝐦𝐲 𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐦𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐥 𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞, 𝐩𝐢𝐞𝐫𝐜𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐯𝐞𝐢𝐥(𝐦𝐲 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐞), 𝐡𝐨𝐥𝐞, 𝐧𝐢𝐫𝐯𝐚𝐧𝐚, 𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐟𝐢𝐭𝐬, 𝐩!𝐚𝐭𝐝, 𝐛𝐣𝐨̈𝐫𝐤, 𝐛𝐞𝐚𝐛𝐚𝐝𝐨𝐨𝐛𝐞𝐞, 𝐦𝐨𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐧 𝐛𝐚𝐬𝐞𝐛𝐚𝐥𝐥, 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞, 𝐣𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐨𝐟𝐟 𝐣𝐢𝐥𝐥, 𝐦𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐜𝐞 𝐦𝐢𝐳𝐞𝐫, 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐜 𝐭𝐫𝐞𝐞, 𝐬𝐡𝐚𝐳𝐧𝐚, 𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐝𝐚𝐲, 𝐫𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐨𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐝, 𝐦𝐚𝐳𝐳𝐲 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫, 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐚𝐲𝐬, 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐛𝐞𝐫𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬,𝐟𝐚𝐲𝐞 𝐰𝐞𝐛𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫, 𝐟𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐚 𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐥𝐞, 𝐬𝐥𝐞𝐞𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐬𝐢𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐬, 𝐛𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐯𝐞𝐢𝐥 𝐛𝐫𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐬, 𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐧 𝐫𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐞(𝐨𝐥𝐝 𝐨𝐟𝐜), 𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐚 𝐝𝐞𝐥 𝐫𝐞𝐲, 𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐳𝐞𝐫, 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐥𝐞𝐬, 𝐟𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐤 𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐭𝐫𝐚, 𝐚𝐦𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐟𝐨𝐨𝐭𝐛𝐚𝐥𝐥, 𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐨𝐭 𝐬𝐦𝐢𝐭𝐡(𝐢𝐥𝐲), 𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐢𝐠𝐨 𝐝𝐞 𝐬𝐨𝐮𝐳𝐚,𝐰𝟐𝐞, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐞𝐭𝐜𝐜𝐜 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐩 𝐧𝐨𝐰 !!

𝐚𝐧𝐢𝐦𝐞𝐬: 𝐡𝐱𝐡 !!!(𝐚 𝐟𝐚𝐯 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐬𝐮𝐫𝐞) 𝐣𝐣𝐤,𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐚𝐥 𝐞𝐱𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐧, 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲 𝐬𝐭𝐮𝐝𝐢𝐨 𝐠𝐡𝐢𝐛𝐥𝐢 𝐦𝐨𝐯𝐢𝐞, 𝐦𝐚𝐛𝐫𝐨𝐬𝐡𝐢, 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐡 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐞, 𝐦𝐡𝐚, 𝐡𝐚𝐢𝐤𝐲𝐮, 𝐝𝐞𝐯𝐢𝐥𝐦𝐚𝐧 𝐜𝐫𝐲𝐛𝐚𝐛𝐲, 𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐚𝐧𝐚 𝐟𝐢𝐬𝐡,𝐛𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐛𝐮𝐭𝐥𝐞𝐫, 𝐧𝐚𝐧𝐚, 𝐝𝐞𝐦𝐨𝐧 𝐬𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐞𝐫, 𝐲𝐮𝐫𝐢 𝐨𝐧 𝐢𝐜𝐞, 𝐭𝐨𝐢𝐥𝐞𝐭 𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝 𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐚𝐤𝐨 𝐤𝐮𝐧,𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐞𝐜𝐭 𝐨𝐟𝐜....

𝐞𝐱𝐭𝐫𝐚:𝐢𝐦 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐦𝐲 𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐨𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠!! 𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐦𝐨𝐬𝐭 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐲 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐚 𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞 𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠 𝐝𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐚𝐧𝐢𝐦𝐞, 𝐨𝐫 𝐚 𝐜𝐞𝐫𝐭𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐭!

𝐨𝐤𝐢𝐢𝐢 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐬 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐧𝐨𝐰 ;𝟑, 𝐝𝐨𝐧𝐭 𝐛𝐞 𝐬𝐡𝐲 𝐭𝐨 𝐟𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐨𝐰 𝐦𝐞 𝐨𝐫 𝐦𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐚𝐠𝐞 𝐦𝐞 !! ♡´･ᴗ･`♡

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jargyles · 10 months ago

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jeddie - the one where they don't break up

j&e have an epic summer of love and can't wait to finish highschool together (au where the byers don't move to cali. yet), but jonathan's insecurities get in the way of their outness. they don't break up about it. | ship: jonathan byers/eddie munson | bg characters: will byers (mentioned), wayne munson (mentioned) | words: ~3.4k | warnings: mentions of drinking, recreational drug use, references past alcoholism, internalized homophobia, period-typical attitudes around queerness, jonathan-typical relationship problems. lotsa angst

summer happened.

jonathan and eddie kissed for the first time, a whip of teeth and tongue that left jonathan hopped up on a new strand of endorphins and eddie- well, the same, but back then- newly obsessed with his club member's brother. jonathan hadn't anticipated them kissing more after that, chalking it up to some hazy frolic into dying grass, a firework that left a smell. he figured that would be the case especially when the fourth of july came and eddie kissed him again, and a handful of times between then and their first kiss, and another handful of times after that.

jonathan didn't think anything of it; having eddie around, getting high, going to shows and kissing in the dark, getting drunk, kissing after long walks home, all of it seemed like something that fit into eddie's idea of "a summer you'll never forget, byers". he didn't think anything about the way eddie looked, or spoke, or played guitar, or even held him in between moments they weren't doing anything. he didn't think about any of that, but… there was something. something that drove them to where they are now, something that made jonathan fully aware of what they meant to each other, even if it took a while.

it'd be the way eddie beamed at him every time they met, thin lips brandishing wide smiles and folding into the slight chub of his cheeks. it'd be the way jonathan didn't understand what it meant to feel empty when he didn't see him smiling. it'd be the way his hair would fall in stringy curls in front of his big brown eyes during a show, or after, or before, when they'd spent a good thirty minutes trying to wrestle a blunt they were sharing away from one another. the way his eyes would linger on the bend of eddie's knuckles underneath his silver rings. sometimes it'd be his scent, his laugh, even his touch- but really it'd be the lack of it all that drove jonathan to places he never thought he'd park at. especially with eddie munson.

neither one of them expected the other to say 'i love you', but they both did, and they were both shocked and didn't know what would come after that, but then they just kind of dealt with it. they would kiss, and get high, and go to shows, and hold each other, and spend days with jonathan's family and wayne, or the party, or the rest of eddie's band, and they would smile and say 'i love you' somewhere in between all that. they didn't even question it, and after about two months or so, they just accepted it. they were dating. boyfriends, even.

summer happened and the rest of their relationship became interwoven with trips to scoops and reading comic books in the woods and making out while listening to queen, a middle ground. the theatrics and vibrato were for eddie, and the music, the lyrics, and the familiarity of it all were for jonathan. lyrics became dates of the week, and theatrics became sweat-stained t-shirts under fizzling leds. they were trapped there for a while.

eddie had to repeat his senior year (again), and jonathan was starting his. both of these milestones, so to speak, took place after summer, and they hadn't thought about that.

jonathan was mostly excited for will; getting to drive to school together, showing him where his classes were, helping him with extracurriculars and homework, not even thinking for a second that his little brother would be attending the same school as his boyfriend. eddie didn't think about that either; he was stoked to have his byers and his mini byers with him, rambling on about how 'awesome' hellfire campaigns would be, how they'd drive him to the hideout- to which jonathan immediately shot that down- and how will's freshman year would be his favorite year because 'me and big byers are gonna make you never forget it, kid' and that's all the two of them cared about, really.

they didn't think about what would happen after they showed up at school together.

will decided that he'd rather walk with the rest of his friends to school that day, and have a proper meet-up-and-recap before they all settled into new classes and opportunities, so jonathan and eddie rode to school together. in eddie's van.

the thing they don't tell most people about having a boyfriend in hawkins is that most people in hawkins who have boyfriends are girls, and most boys who date have girlfriends, and so little couple-y things like showing up to school in the same van and fixing each other's jackets would earn strange and unsettling looks from fellow student passersby. things like that, when done without a girl present or involved in the straightening or light dusting of jackets, often got someone spat on or shoved into a toilet or trash can or locker of some kind, accompanied with a brand new word for "gay" written in permanent marker somewhere on your exposed skin for everyone to see.

they have the same first period, but they don't walk to class together.

they have the same last period too, but eddie can't wait that long.

during lunch, when jonathan is washing his hands before making the trek to the parking lot to eat alone in his car, a handful of boys enter and exit their respective stalls. most of them ignore him (thankfully) and the ones that don't just stare, and it could be due to his brother- the zombie- attending school with him now, it could be the way some people definitely saw him exit the same van as eddie munson, and it could be the way it's taking him so long to raise his hands above the sink to dry them off. all in all, they're still staring. there's a rolodex of reasons to stare at jonathan byers, and none of them are good, and all of them make sense, to a certain degree.

at least jonathan can wash his hands about it. he's getting better at moving his arms past his elbows, and he's grateful for being able to wash his hands under five minutes, even if his fingers still jitter or the water feels like- something he's bound to wash away again, maybe, if he isn't careful about eddie. about will. at least he can look forward to walking by eddie's table with the rest of the hellfire club as he makes his way into peaceful (albeit, regretful) solitude. maybe eddie will shoot him a wink mid speech, or smile at him and act like he's smiling at someone else during one of his elaborate public disruptions.

instead, jonathan hears a loud, swinging screech and flinches, his arms tensing up down to the laddering of his spine, and his first instinct is to reach for something but instead he just ducks his head down and mutters an apology, as if he was the one barging in on an innocent sink-dweller. instead of barking back at him, or spitting a venom-slick synonym for 'queer' and shoving him into the nearest stall, the interrupter pulls him in for a tight hug. it startles jonathan, until he realizes the only person to hug him by lifting him a foot above the ground is-

"can't fucking do this-" and eddie’s wrapping constrictor-tight arms around him one moment, then pushing the two of them into the nearest stall the next, and holding him by the face with both hands to kiss him right after that, "can't fucking do this, byers- i can't-"

"hey, listen-" jonathan melts, and couldn't think of a way to reciprocate eddie's intensity if he tried, becoming fully swept up in words stitched in between layers of kissing, "listen, eds-"

eddie stops, because he knows when to stop, when jonathan feels like it's becoming too much, too much acting and not enough savoring, or too much closeness when he needs air. jonathan expected eddie to ramble himself into a corner, or have a smile cutting its way across his mouth, something familiar to soothe his yearning. what jonathan doesn't expect is eddie looking back at him with eyes so wet, so red, that it looks like he'd been punched everywhere but south from the time he swung that door open to the first kiss he planted on jonathan's face.

"do you- do you know?" eddie's hand is on the spot next to jonathan's head. he's practically hunched over, his lips scrunched into a frown. "do you know how hard it is to act like i don't fuckin' miss you like crazy?"

"i know, hey, i know-" and jonathan is cradling eddie's head in his shoulder like he did during the summer, when they'd open up about things like this, that left them hoveling and wrecked for hours on end. he smooths over his stringy mass of hair, pushing it out of his face while eddie tried to replace the air in his lungs with whatever jonathan had going on at the top of his neck.

"i can't fucking do this." he snaps, his voice as wet as his eyes when he yanks himself from underneath jonathan's hold.

"i know." jonathan is prepared for the worst; he's ready to kiss eddie one last time in that stall and walk out with a wrinkled shirt that's bound to turn heads. he figures it's the end of summer and eddie has a breakable heart, and it must break his heart to not be around jonathan like how he used to, so jonathan figures it's time. he sighs, putting on a brave, stoic face while giving eddie a firm squeeze on his shoulder.

eddie isn't having any of it.

"i can't fucking live like this, byers." eddie says it- live- in a way that jonathan would've easily missed had he been focused on the mess of teeth and tongue sliding its way up and down his neck, dancing just above his collarbone.

it weighs on him, the idea of eddie not being able to live without him, or the idea of eddie not being able to live without being with him, whichever idea made the most sense. jonathan knows this is nonsensical, from every angle, because eddie doesn't mean that, and jonathan shouldn't just assume things out of people he dates for a month or two, or three, or… however long it's been since their first kiss. just because eddie kissed him back then the exact same way he's kissing him now- sporadic movements and bumps of teeth, both of their skin clammy and sundried at the same time- doesn't mean they should exist in a world where hawkins isn't hawkins. it's hard for him to imagine it, a world where he and eddie could step out of the same van or even hold hands in the halls, and if he tries hard enough he can convince himself that that isn't actually what he wanted from all this, no way, no how. it's hard to convince himself of that when eddie is taking his zipper down.

"eddie, wait-" he manages to cough out, having had every cognitive thought kissed right out of him, and his featherlight wrist tries to pick at eddie's heavily accessorized one. "really, wait. c'mon, eds- we gotta- gotta talk this out, okay? talk."

eddie exhales, long and heavy through his nose, with a pleased chuckle rumbling somewhere underneath all that. jonathan is relieved, even if eddie starts pressing quiet kisses up his neck again, at least jonathan knows he's listening.

"i missed you too." jonathan leans into it, resting his palm on eddie's cheek. he does miss him, even now, but he won't say it. eddie doesn't have to know that this is hard for him too, that he wants to be doing this- kissing, no judgemental eyes or poisonous words- out in the open, with all their peers, with everyone and anyone who could see.

eddie makes a noise, disgruntled, perished, wrecked inside, and he’s pressing the flesh of his cheek into jonathan's hand, nuzzling him with a ferocity that shouldn't be described as a "nuzzle". his arms come around jonathan's waist, tight, like he's protesting the bulldozing of the place that doesn't card for cigarettes, or trying to break him in half.

"i'm serious, eds," jonathan hears himself break, for a second, in a voice crack that borders on a wheeze, "i missed you. a lot."

"yeah, no, i- i know." eddie closes his leaking eyes tight, breathing him in again. "which is why i- i can't. i can't not be with you, or around you, or act like i don't even… like we don't even… know each other? does that make sense? i don't- i don't know what i'm saying here, jonny. something in there might make sense-"

"eddie." jonathan scoffs with endearment, then his heart sinks when he thinks about not getting to hear his boyfriend ramble anymore. "i know what you mean."

they pause, silence wrapping around them like a wool blanket. they're just limbs at this point; eddie's lips still wandering aimlessly on however much skin he could find on jonathan's neck, jonathan's head curled towards him, both of their arms folded around each other as they breathed, speaking in bumps of noses and sighs of gratitude.

"we just have to be careful, okay?" jonathan is the first to pull them back to reality, as unwilling as he was. "just for the year, yeah? so people don't think… y’know."

"god," eddie groans, his forehead thumping against the wall behind them, and he chuckles again, until it bleeds into a whine. "since when do we care about what people think? since when did we have to start acting like fucking…" both of them know what that silence means, and both of them knew how to not get caught over the summer, except for when they didn't, "ugh! this fucking sucks. this sucks, byers. why do we have to pretend that we're-"

"we won't be pretending," jonathan's face feels blank, and he tightens his fingers around eddie's bicep, "we'd still be together, just… we won't tell anyone. not because of what they'll say, but because it isn't their business."

there were a lot of things jonathan was scared of, and a lot of reasons to be scared of them. for a long time, he was scared of having to hurt someone he loved, and he was prepared for the inevitability of it happening, because ever since will first went missing, he knew he'd shut himself off more. what he wasn't prepared for, in the event of letting down a person he loved, was for that person to be eddie. he especially, never in his life, would've thought to prepare for the look on eddie's face after he said that.

eddie backs off completely, unashamed tears fully streaming down his face, his hands forgetting jonathan's zipper entirely, latching onto his shoulders like jonathan would go missing without them being wound together. he shrugs, and then his head is down and jonathan hears the starts to a lot of sentences that never get finished, or even have a first word to begin with. his hands tremble, his ring-clad fingers digging dent marks into jonathan's bare ones. he sniffles, hard, and it breaks jonathan's heart right down the middle.

he knows he should say something. he knows he should pull eddie closer, tell him he didn't mean it, that they'll just float through their senior year together and it'll be a breeze, or the best year of will's life, or whatever else eddie said, but he can't. he can't bring himself to do anything when he knows that lunch period will be over soon, and someone might see them leave this stall together and assume the worst- the truth- and make their lives a living hell. eddie doesn't deserve that. he should be able to graduate in one piece without jonathan dragging him down.

"i didn't know you were-" eddie is the first to speak, because jonathan is busy holding in his own tears at seeing him like this, "i didn't think you still cared about this stuff, y'know?" he squeezes jonathan's hands in his palms, "other people seeing us, whatever, all that shit. i didn't know it mattered so much to you."

"it doesn't." jonathan's lips crinkle into a frown. eddie didn't know what he was talking about.

"yeah?" eddie meets his eyes, and they're worse than jonathan could've imagined them being. his face is flushed, and his lips are red from having kissed jonathan so much, and his mouth twitches as it opens and closes, words dying off his tongue before he could form them. "because you really seem to give a shit about being seen with me, or even fucking knowing me, actually, so what gives? what changed with you, byers? what made you make up this- this fucking game plan on how we're supposed to act now, huh?"

"nothing." jonathan's voice is tight, and his fingers feel small and dry in eddie's hands.

"bullshit." eddie's grip is more firm, more secure, but still soft. his eyes scan jonathan's face, and his eyebrows have that arch in them that jonathan had only seen when he was learning a new song on guitar. he used to admire it, found it cute, but now it terrifies him. "what, are you, like… embarrassed of me? ashamed or- or something?"

"that's not-" jonathan feels a single tear fall, and he realizes he might've been holding in a breath this entire time. he knew how eddie worked; all it took was one missed idea, or misconstrued thought, and eddie would be in his dark hole of self pity once again, and they'd done so well with his progressing sobriety over the summer that jonathan doesn't want to see what'll happen when eddie gets down there again. “i’m not.”

"you don't like me anymore, then?" that crack in his voice- jonathan hates it- makes eddie sound like a rejected kid, and even he starts to shake his head at how ridiculous it might sound. "are we not, like, clicking like we used to? is it someone else?"

"eddie-" jonathan knows he's helpless to stop this spiral, and he starts his own series of unfinished sentences that come out as shortenings of breath and hollow grunts.

"did i do something?" eddie has his shoulders fully slumped now. "i know i'm not, like, the best boyfriend in the world or anything, but, you- you gotta tell me if i mess up, y’know? so we can-"

the bell rings. jonathan swore he wouldn't miss lunch, swore to himself he wouldn't make a scene on the first day back, for everyone's sake, and here they were. eddie is stood frozen in front of him, his body solid in it's hunched stance while his eyes bug out, racing around every corner of their shared space. when jonathan snaps his fingers in front of his face, eddie heaves, his posture loosening almost instantly.

"go." jonathan wishes he didn't sound so quick to get eddie to leave, but he has to get them apart before people see, and eddie still isn't getting the picture. he grabs him by the arm, and the way eddie won't even look at him is blunt enough to crack a bone. "you have go, eds, right now, or-"

"yeah." eddie snatches his arm away, sniffs hard as he wipes his face with one hand, and pushes the stall door open to properly storm out. "already ahead of you."

jonathan watches him leave, knowing (or at least assuming to know) that they'll talk later, and that they both need to get a grip before shit gets heavier than it needs to be. it'd have to be at his trailer after school, without will tagging along or, hopefully, without wayne to mistakenly wander in on their conversation. jonathan would have to think, long and hard, about what that talk would even mean for them. worst case scenario, they break up and hate each other for the rest of their lives.

jonathan can't think of another scenario.

#kings.txt #jeddie #jonathan byers #eddie munson #my deepest apologies to the jeff/eddie community i love yall so bad however i have been calling these dorks jeddie since 2022 #old habits die hard as they say. but nothing but respect for yall 🫶 corroded coffin polycule forever and ever #but YAYYYYY IVE DONE IT ! IVE POSTED JEDDIE FIC AFTER SAYING I WOULD ! who cheered #would yall believe me if i said this was of the least angsty excerpts out of my jeddie masterdoc #big thanks to natey (@/sinclarsupremacy) for being the beta reader for this TE QUIERO MUCHOOOOOO BESOS BESOS BESOS #using his big healthy brain to make sense out of my emo schlop that is jeddieposting #throws confetti everywhere. peace and love on emo love planet #also if im up to it i might post this to ao3. my ao3 is soooo not great im tempted to orphan my works from when i was like. a teenager #but i WOULD like to post more jeddie into the tag. alas. im lazy 🚬

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